Always a Mother

I'll always be your mother, and you'll always be my childA mothers love knows no bounderies and no matter how short of a time I held you in my wombI will always cherish the closness we had for these few weeks. Your tiny existence was celebrated and cherished from the very moment we knew of you.I can only imagine how much more God must cherish holding you in the palm of his hand today. Even though you were so small, and didn't even have a name, I know you were mine and thats all that matters.People say this happens everyday,but I will alwasy be your mother, and you will always be my child.Size and time, and identity and gender don't ever cross my mind because I am your mother and you will always be my child.
June 24, 2008

I have had a few complications with my very new pregnancy, and today i learned that I will not be able to carry this baby for much longer. Even though I was only six weeks along, I feel a very big loss and saddness. I have hoped and prayed for another baby for almost a year and I was overjoyed that I was gonna be a momma again. I know this is a very early miscarriage, but just the same I have lost a baby. A tiny little soul lived with me for six weeks and fo rthat I am grateful. Everyday, I read pregnancy books about what kind of development the baby was experienceing on certain days and I was so anxious to see a sonogram or hear a heartbeat soon. God has his ways of bringing us back in touch with life, and love and with our emotions and our softer side. I know God only has my best interest in mind and I can only look forward to the future and rejoice for everything that I do have, even if it was only mine for a while.